This post was originally published in 2011.
Reposting on the eve of Violet’s 5th birthday. Love you little lady, so much!
If you have followed my blog or know me in real life, you may remember the scare I had during the beginning of the second trimester while pregnant with Violet. I wrote a post to remember that experience, and possibly bring hope to someone else going through the same thing at the time. I may share that again here at a later date.
I remember sitting in the ER dreaming about a future life together, and our family welcoming this baby… filled with fear I prayed begging God to bring our baby safely to us, we loved him/her so much already.
Last night, while I lay awake, admiring our baby all those memories flooded in… it hit me; she is our perfect miracle. God’s hands held her in my womb, He blessed her and I, then brought her safely into the world. At twelve weeks along I had no idea what I was potentially losing, but God did… He knew her! He knew her name, her date of birth, her big smile, the sound of her voice, each and every single hair on her head… He knew her sweet smell, and her chubby rolls.
Sometimes in the midst of crying, and the chaos its easy to forget how we almost lost our sweet Violet. Cuddled up next to her last night, I realized the mercy God poured out to us. Violet is one of the richest blessings in our life.
If I wasn’t sure of His plan for our life before, my heart and mind is sure now… Romans 8:28 ‘And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose‘. That verse is so easy to believe when things are good, but trusting His will during the hard and scary times is what grows our faith walk.
Violet was celebrated by us, our families (our church, and extended family’s churches), and our friends! She was the ‘New Years’ baby of 2011 for the town of Huntsville, and also first baby for the Midwives of Muskoka clinic. That little baby girl was front page news! Greatly celebrated on earth, welcomed here with love. I can only imagine the rejoicing that was in heaven, as our sweet Violet made her first cries.
This older post reminds me of how sometimes it may seem that my walk/trust in God is easy – maybe times when the blessings are overflowing, and constant. Other times I feel lost in a wasteland of self pity and loneliness, wondering if I have been forgotten. Having these ‘God Only’ moments saved help point me back to the truth; He is always faithful, He is always there, His ways are best. When I am scared I can run to His shelter, when I am sad I can run to His comfort, when I am happy I can rejoice with Him. I encourage you to record your faith journey in a journal or the like. For those moments when you can’t see hope, pull your journal out and read the awesome that has been. I would love to hear if you start a new one or maybe already have a journal. If you use another method to encourage yourself to press on, please share!
“There is no one holy like the LORD; there is no one besides you; there is no Rock like our God.” Samuel 2:2